Living with intention, My yoga teacher said...

Pondering this today

“If you are being poked or prodded, you are not being punished or abused. You are being pushed out of the nest.”

This is from Savasana, something my yoga mentor read about a year ago. I jotted it down in “Drafts,” and happened upon it today. 

Source is unknown because I don’t remember what it was, but I expect to come across it again in the next six months. 

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Living with intention, My yoga teacher said...

Spring, for me.

If you look at the calendar, or ask a groundhog, or follow the sun, it may not look like Spring just yet. But it is Spring for me. After a long winter of runny noses and Dickensian coughs, my family seems the be on the mend. It’s chilly but our energy is up, particularly mine. I am in motion. I have newness on the brain. I feel like writing, after a long winter of just… not.

I’ve cut meat out of my diet for a second time… I was a vegetarian from the age of 15 until I was 24… here I go again at age 40. Given the meat alternatives on the market, and the fact that I know more about nutrition, it feels new to me. I am planning my garden. Or rather, un-planning my garden, as I’ve decided to give my small raised bed a year of compost and soil renewing love, so it feels like Spring. And I have a new vision for my yoga journey, one where I begin sharing and teaching yoga sooner than I imagined. More on that soon, hopefully.

Yesterday, my yoga teacher’s reading touched on yoga as a garden, on tending our practice like we would a garden. It is a metaphor that speaks to me. A garden flourishes with attention, and a person blooms with intention. A garden and a person experience seasons of abundance, of shedding, of dormancy, and of blooming. I am welcoming this blooming stage, this Spring, as I marinate in this newness.

Living with intention, Yoga for non-yoga people

Setting my Intentions: Bringing Yoga to Non-Yoga People

It’s been a while since I’ve written. I’m OK with that. I’m trying to live in the present, offer what I can to my family and friends, to the universe, and finding peace in who I am. Some days I am more successful than others, and that’s OK too. My yoga mentor says, “Begin where you are.” And I am here. I’m setting my intentions on being who I want to be. I am setting my intentions on willpower, on focus, on love, on peace.

The longer I practice yoga, the more value I see in it as a lifestyle, and I want to help people who would not be drawn to a studio find yoga. I have discovered that I want to bring yoga to non-yoga people. To people suffering with thyroid issues, people battling rheumatoid arthritis, to fellow infertility warriors, addicts in recovery, children fighting socioeconomic oppression, to people who deem themselves too unfit to “do yoga,” to people struggling to keep their A1C down as they stave off or endure type II diabetes… you see where I’m going here.

So I’m writing these intentions down, putting them out to the universe. I’m in no rush, I’m taking it slow. I want to do this right. I’ve got a mentor, the will to do this, and the heart. In time, I will have the willpower and the skills. I’m so excited to be embarking on this journey. Thanks for reading.

Living with intention, My yoga teacher said...

Vanity in Yoga: How Will You Wear Your Pose?

red mat strap block yoga blanket

Paraphrasing what Teacher L said today: “You know those pictures you see of people with their faces turned up and that expression of enlightenment? Sometimes that is only for looks, and it places a strain on your neck. It is a choice we all make, whether we want to face the sky or have the neck in a more natural position. I don’t like to put strain on my neck, because I don’t like to feel that way. You have do think about, how will you wear your pose?”

I found that I agreed with her. I also prefer to keep my neck and face in a more natural place, where I can “forget” about them and focus on keeping the balance between the sides of my body. Shoulders, hips, feet… yoga works best, for ME, when I keep things aligned and balanced. I am so over having to look pretty. I want to FEEL good!

Notes on today’s practice
Attended a beginner’s class. I forgot to set an intention for my practice and found my mind wandering during savasana. Mental note, make sure I begin thinking about my intention on the drive to class! We worked on Pigeon and opening the ribcage. Essential oil used during savasana: tangerine and orange.

Living with intention, Mothering

I’m Here. 

image.jpgI’ve been showing up to yoga classes, whether I want to get out of bed or not. I have a toddler who will not sleep through the night. He was for a while. But now he’s not.

Yesterday, when I arrived at class (after feeding two kids, dressing one, then dropping the other off at school) there was one “good”‘spot left in the studio. There was a yoga block there and I didn’t know this was intended to save a spot for someone.

I began to unfurl my mat, and the woman beside me said, “Oh, this space is taken.” Before thinking, without any filter, I replied, “I’m here.”

“But she comes all the time.”

I didnt know what to say. My teacher, ever the mind reader and peacemaker, called me and said “Look, I can make room next to me!”

I sat on my mat and set my intentions on learning to listen and respond thoughtfully. It occurred to me that saving a spot at a yoga class is very anti yoga. But so is my overreacting and playing the exchange over and over in my head.

I have two children. They take up space in my life. They do things like get sick, bite my yoga blocks, take too long to get dressed, forget their backpack… There are ways in which it is so hard to show up. But I’m here.

Living with intention, meditation, Mothering

In Medias Res

I have not posted in a number of days. I have written, I have practiced yoga, but I have not given myself the space to sit down and write something that is complete. 

Today, I am giving myself permission to write and post in medias res, “into the middle of things.” It will never be the beginning or the end for me. I am a parent, I am trying to make all the things happen all the time. So it’s ok if things are always in progress and under construction. 

We’ve had illness in our home, fevers and chills and things of that sort. As The Mom it is me that administers the medication, makes the matzo ball soup, takes the temperatures, and washes the sheets. Especially when my husband is one of the fevered and fallen. 

Now things are looking up. My daughter is back at school, my husband is back at work, the toddler (although teething) actually slept last night. And today I went to te advanced yoga class, so I’m taking five minutes to write before I go retrieve the toddler from the nursery, and on we go. 

Notes on today’s practice: today I made a point to set my intention before we began our flow. I set my intention on willpower. It was a sweaty, fast-paced class and I am feeling clear. Essential oils used during savasana: Orange and sandalwood. 

I would like to report back on how the willpower intention carried through the day… I hope I get to do so, but if not, well, here we go…